somehow i managed to lose the 3kg i gained. Either the weighing machine’s cuckoo or Mr Jiemei theory that temperory weight gain within a short period of time won’t last.

Anyway there’s alot of readings to do. I am determined to do well for a tough course.

Not much updates cause my life has been impressively hectic.

Wednesday: went to gamble and lost money with my mother being the biggest loser. I can’t believe my mother is a compulsive gambler. She puts $10 per bet even though she has been losing straight. And even though she loses every time she was the banker, she still volunteered. Goodness gracious me. I was so angry, I told her to stop being such big bets in front of the other relatives and relatives’ relatives. Maybe they deem me as rude cause I raised my voice and wore a breasts-revealing top, but I did what a daughter should. Stop the losses. I mean it is fine if she loses 50 bucks. But to lose 100++ and possibly more will be a tad too much. Maybe 100++ does not seem a lot. But I am those kids from young who never ever received hong bao money since my mother doesn’t have that much money. So we will just return all the ang bao money back to her since she gave ang bao money to the relatives. Even until now, I don’t even get any angbao money except those I collect myself. So to lose money like as if our family is a rich cash cow, is enough to piss me off. There was this stranger (relative’s relative) who was shocked at my rudeness but do I fucking care? No.

Thursday: went back to sch to study. Nerd nerd nerd

Friday: went to lunch with my ex-internship place. I love my ex-colleagues of the first internship. They are so nice to me compared to *cough* the second one *cough cough*. We went to throw yusheng and ate some yummy food. Had fried ice cream for the first time. And as usual, I don’t have to pay. I shall treat them with my first official pay since they always pay for my food.

I went to the health promotion board to do some research. And it was by some stroke of fate, I saw my Shanghai boss. Maybe she doesn’t recognize me but she didn’t say hi to me. But she was busy talking to the HPB people also lah. I wanted to say hi to her when she left but alas I was chased out first.

Then I went to donate blood at the HSA which was a stone’s throw away. I attempted to. But was rejected at the stage where they were locating my veins. My puny veins refused to show up. I refused to believe the nurse and told her I donated blood before. What I didn’t tell her was that the nurse who did it for me the other time was “going in and out of my arm to locate my vein.” Then she told the senior nurse to check for me since I was super insistent about my veins. She couldn’t find also. Bah. I was reminded for the time I took half an hour for some injection compared to the few minutes of my friends as the nurse couldn’t find my veins. It was embarrassing for the nurse to keep slapping my veins non-stop. GROW BIGGER LOUSY VEINS. My blood pressure for such a huge person is decidedly little. 100/66 only

And then I went for another round of cny celebration with the jc peeps Irene hurt my feelings and said that I only eat the expensive food when I wanted to eat gan bei. Oei, it’s nice what. I eat a lot of sausages also. Then we started to throw yu sheng again. Believe me when I said throw cause yu sheng landed on my hands again. And after which we played mahjong where I won 50% of the time. Hahahaha. Its beginner’s luck. However lost in the end, cause Jess had 5 tai in one major win while I always have 1-2 tais only.

Saturday was spent visiting cheryl’s and cal’s house. Mr GAY forgot about our outing. Then while waiting for Cheryl to pick us up at calister’s house, I fell asleep on her sofa. I told ya I can sleep anywhere and everywhere Hahaha. Machiam sleeping beauty. And Cheryl and calister came to my house to bai nian and shopping. They each left home with one item. Tsk tsk.

Sunday was spent screaming at my tuition kids. The best reason not to bring my textbooks home for the common tests the following week?

“ too heavy to bring home”

KNN. I put on 3 kg. KNN. Fuck man.

I recorded a short audio with mr fag while in school today. I know my blog is getting very boring with all the work shite but guess what, I think the shite is finally over (although my mentor just called me to ask about the work -_-)

Good news will come in march I hope regarding my Shanghai Internship. I have to produce a research report of about eight to ten pages. I got selected but this assignment will be like a try-out to see whether the employer and employee has a match. I think my research will hundred over pages. But it is fun to read up on it.

I am finally going places. Six months in Shanghai and i will be blogging from there. HOW fucking cool is that?

Today’s my only free day which I don’t even have to step out of the house. And being so excited for school, I decided to download all my notes and read through it before school starts. And I decided to head back to school to study.

OMG. hahahhaha.

There is some excitment when I was downloading my notes.

NOW, I am finally going back to school.

My stamina is not what it used to be. I used to be able to down 2 or 2.5 jugs with no probs. But now, a much slimmer and less wild me cannot even take a bottle of beer. All it takes was a bottle of beer and I started to walk in a zigzag line. Add 4 cups of bourbon coke and 1 glass of champange and you have a drunk me.

i think I am going to shanghai. Shall find out more soon.

The grp of 4 (including me) was thought to be dance hostresses by the cab driver. KNNCCB

Watched Ms potter with sab. Renee looked extremely old in there and maybe they are trying to protray the old times with no SK2, olay and all the aging creams.

I lost money yesterday. Shall listen to the chinese horoscope which said I need to be careful about money.

In return, I bought a huge piggy bank from daiso. And then I realised abt the shanghai thing which means no savings.

Ok. Super blur and cuokooed now.

Not bad, upgrade from beer lady to dance hostress. CCB

My last day of internship ended finally. Miss Pooh is so damn nice. We are supposed to go shopping yesterday but because of my work which got delayed, she came down to my client’s place to help me out so that I can end earlier. I think I am super blessed with nice friends. In the end, I was supposed to end early to eat some intern’s lunch back at the office but I returned only 5 hrs later. Nevermind. Count as OT hours.

Then Miss Pooh realised that I was auditing her father’s company. What a small small small world.

In the end we headed back to office, cleared some admin stuff and finally went down to meet her sister for some shopping which wasn’t that eventful.

And I returned home to sleep while using my laptop. I have acquired the incredible skill of sleeping around anywhere, even in a sitting position. During the 2 days of chinese new year, I have slept at all my relatives’ hse everyday. As long as there is a bed, I sleep.

I am pretty much relieved that there is no more internship.

Fast forward to cny’s eve. I had to pack my room properly since I have no chance before that to clear. But being the ‘neat’ person I am, my pig sty is cleared in no time. Haaa! Since it is a pig sty already, so I don’t have to clear so hard.

Then it was the reunion dinner at my grandma’s hse. For desert we had cocktail.

Then on the first day of CNY, we had cocktail and sea cucumber. And I tested alot of pineapple tarts which were my favourite. Then for dinner, it was more sea cucumber, alot of fried stuff and cocktail again.

Then on the second day of CNY (which wasn’t very happy), we had cocktail for desert and some fried food for lunch. And dinner was at my house with sea cucumber, fried food and cocktail.

I ate cocktail 5 times in 3 days. Gosh. The canned fruits industry must be blooming during CNY each year. And the poor sea cucumbers as well. It doesn’t help that I love it to bits as well. Cooked. And I ate almost all the frozen fried food available in the market. There were the old school nuggets and some very interesting ones.

And I always try all the pineapple tarts available. I hate nutritionists you know. First they tell you to eat fruits. Pineapple I last checked is a fruit. And then they tell you that pineapple tarts are unhealthy. If there are pineapple in a pineapple tart, that pineapple tart is healthy. And all the pineapple tarts I tested is ensured that pineapple is involved in the baking.

And now I refuse to start on the weighing machine.

happy Chinese New year everyone.

she will be guestblogging.

don’t you think it is weird that I will miss my client when I am gone tomorrow instead of missing people I have worked with?

All the employees in my client’s office will be missed. It has been 2 months and they won’t even know why I am gone. Maybe they think that I am going to audit another company. But I am finally going back to school. I can’t wait to be sucked into the study drydrill again.

Today’s my last day. But as with all last days, I got alot of work to clear before I hand over the reins. And the amount of work is scaring me shitless. Its scary and I feel so helpless. But there’s a half day tomorrow and for that I feel glad.

I am a survivor. I survived all the scoldings my mentor gave. Survived all the work. Survived through all the tears I have cried. Survived the harsh hours.Put aside my unhappiness and finally the day I have been waiting for a long long time is finally here. And somehow I feel empty. I feel so freaking emotionless about it, its so weird. Am i going to celebrate tomorrow? I don’t know. Most probably I will buy some new year clothes. Clear my room perharps. I need to emote and somehow I can’t.

All my peers look at me and think I have learnt alot from this internship. I mean from all the crazy hours I put in, of course I have learnt somethings. But somehow I don’t feel that I have learnt alot. *shoulder shrug* I really don’t know what to feel anymore. Somemore I lose myself along the way.

I think that my last day at work will be my worse day at work