I owe a decent update. Since I am home early (yes 10 pm is considered early. Sob sob), I shall blog properly.

Let me intro this character, Mr Chimmey cause he is someone who can talk alot of rubbish to smoke you. Unfortunately this character is someone from my client’s hq and someone who is of quite a high position. This guy was asking for my email and since i am just an intern, I do not have one. So I told him I just joined my company. Upon which he started to ask whether I am fresh from college. Heh. I told him no. And I am not lying. Cause I graduated from jc donkey years ago and I am still in uni.

Since we are stuck in the same room together (my senior went back to office leaving me alone at the client’s place), he talked to me. Quite abit. First he asked me how I would interpret the phrase ” a man with a darkened heart”. I was thinking along the line of depression since I am almost in that state. Then apparently it was about evil people who worshipped “other things as God”. Warning bells rang. After a while, he asked whether I was a buddhist.

Fuck you. I don’t even know you well. Don’t talk religion with me. I hate people who starts to promote their religion to me in subtle or obvious ways. Religion is a freedom of choice and you don’t have to influence me in whatever I believe in especially if I barely know you. Cheebye.

Since I am still an intern, I am not trained in quite alot of things yet. The client wanted me to review some things which only my mentor knows how to. But since she wasn’t there, I was told to review. I have to teh my way through like a mamasan trying to pacify their client whose favourite girl is unavailable. Luckily uncles love me very much and I am always demure in front of them. But I digress, once I was eating at a coffeeshop during lunch with my colleagues and a lady was calling me. Reason? I opened my legs too big and she told me to close them.

So today is another hateful day. It is tuesday already. The week really flies. And I managed to read a book. ha

Ok Book review time. The Breethem by John Grisham about these 3 judges who set up a scam. They are all in jail for crimes and hence they used to be lawyer/judges, they will help their peers to reduce their sentence or appeal their cases for a fee. Or to settle disputes within the prision whereby inmates sue each other. This helped them to earn some money. But the scam was the money-spinner. Basically they advertise in gay magazines as a young 20+ man looking to know nice 40-50 years old gentlemen. They are all straight btw. So they will write lovey dovey letters to their penpals and they will screen to find the rich ones. Since these rich closet gays with wives have a great secret to keep, they will pay off the 3 judges to prevent their letters from being splashed in their little towns. Their scam worked quite well since they managed to get 200 k from 2 men. And they managed to hook this presidential candidate who is the front-runner for the elections. Needless to say, they managed to extort 6 million. The CIA was involved. Super interesting.

I needed to return the book today so I spent lunch reading it while drinking coffee and eating a cake.

PS:Today’s taxidriver is quite reckless. He horned more than 10 times throughout the whole journey. Piang.

I couldn’t stop laughing when my friend was helping me to sell a sphagetti top to a butch who was looking at it.

She said ” You can try it if you want”

Butch ” It is not for me” (eyebrows raised super high)

Wah piangggggg!!!!

Then we bought some clothes which was a little baggy so we had to use a plus sized model -> me

My sister told my dad about it and my dad said that they shouldn’t use me since I was not fat but short. 1.65 m very short meh?

In the end, I only had to try a dress which turned out ugly cause it was ugly to begin with. And don’t get me started on why we bought an ugly dress. So now I can put in my resume that I was once a model-> even if it is for one dress.

Business is picking up and yay, that’s great news

I managed to finish a book during the few days about a month ago whereby I was slacking in the office and doing nothing much. Heh, it was an online book so I can look all studious staring hard at my laptop as if I am thinking about some complicated formulas or shit.

This book is a little warped but hey, its cool cause I can never think of a plot like that. The plot goes like ” there is this butterfly collector who is so smitten with a girl, he starts to fantasize about living with her. He kidnaps her and the story begins from his point of view. And then the story will begin from her point of view about the whole ordeal. And it ends with his point of view again. ”

The only thing I can think of is someone rich and handsome loving fat me and that is already the plot of kim sam soon.

The language is quite flowerly and to the style of 11 minutes. Quite an interesting plot as I can see how human nature functions and thinks.

I will send the book if anybody wants. Email me.

I work everyday. Mon to sat will be my internship ( it’s supposed to be a 5 day week) with lots of ot (It has been more than 2 weeks since I went home when the sky is still bright). Sunday will be all my 3 tuition (from 9am to 6 pm). Not forgetting my business. I need to clean my room, bake some new year cookies, dye my hair red and basically slack.

Yes, I feel very tired everyday but after drinking kopi-o-peng in the morning and at night, I will be awake and work like a robot. My mentor is very distressed at the amount of stamina I have. I can stay until midnight plus everyday and still remain energetic the next day. Hahaha. She was telling her colleague that she stayed until 3.30 am because of me. She said she got a super “Onz” intern “with a lot of drive”. Now, she is doubting whether it is because she is old. Does 3 years have a difference? Maybe because I am used to working and not resting. I shuddered at my 8 tuition kids+ internship life just July last year.

I have removed my social life aspect so far except for the weekends. It is impossible to go out with friends after work or watch a midnight movie and report fresh for work the next day. A fellow colleague who insists on a balanced worklife had a social life till 4 am yesterday and had trouble reporting for work the next morning. I will leave my social life to the weekend.

I will be meeting sab for movie later. We need to meet more often but its tough when we are on different sides of the island. I am free tomorrow evening after my “tuition day” but I think I need to do my business stuff.

It’s 3 more weeks but I think that during the last week, I will be too happy to feel sad. Plus the Friday will be a half-day. Wahaha. Therefore its 2 more weeks, and I will stop blogging about my work. I can’t wait too.

PS: I didn’t go out with sab in the end as she was tired. Feeling quite sad about it since it was the only thing to look forward to on a sat workday.

fuck lah, malaysia just scored. knn ball.

yay we won. I shouted so loudly from my living room. wahhahaa

PS: pity the guy who kicked the last ball and it didn’t get in.

This week just breezes by, it felt like a hurricane. Is it really thursday already? I went back to school today to settle some business stuff. And everybody loves my new short hair. I love it too. They said I lost weight. Yay! Wahahaha.

After a whole day off work, I came to work at 8 pm. It’s kinda stupid but because I am not supposed to take leave during this busy period but I really need to. Then my senior was kind enough to grant me a day off. So to thank her, I will come back to work at 8pm.

The moment I stepped into the office at 8pm, I realised I am very sleepy and tired. Ha, I am human after all.

Shall attempt to go home before 1 am.

Then its 3 more weeks to CNY and finally a rest. And back to school. yay

I need to work now………. Got things to hand in tomorrow. Bah. 3 more weeks and I am officially finished. There are so many things I want to write in depth about but I guess I shall do a summary. My summarizing skills are superb. heh

1) went on sat to find suppliers for my business. KNN. Don’t ever believe hongkong high fashion shit. I went to 2 different stores with the tag, Hong Kong high fashion and all i saw was Hongkong no fashion or Auntie fashion. Wasted my time to travel around Singapore. KNN

2) I give good luck to taxi drivers. Always there is a customer straight after me when I get down.

3) I take cab home everyday.

4) I am stressed up to the fact that I cried again. But all’s well now.

5) I hate my work-> what’s new? I will blog about what I do as an intern after my internship

6) 26 bucks left in my account.

7) I worked until 330 am yesterday. ANd I was the one pushing my senior to stay up so late at the office.

sat and sun looks like its reserved for work

I was daydreaming one day and I realised that v day is approaching and I no longer feel sad that I will be single that day. You see, last year I was quite depressed that I will be alone for Vday until I realised with horror, that I have to spent the day studying for a quiz. This year I will be working and somehow the thought of being lonely is not that depressing anymore. yah, cause there are other things to be depressed about.

I shall go do my work now. Hate.

nothing much to say nowadays except it is OT galore. Worked my latest until 1 am on wed. I got work to do later even though I came home early (9pm is considered early). Somedays I hate work, somedays I don’t.

And I am pretty screwed this semester even though I have not started school. I overbidded for 1 module and now I have to take it or risk getting a non-grade. Bloody hell. Fuck the system. Nabeh cheebye. And I realise that 1 of them got exam. Knn. I thought don’t have.

I have been wearing double eye lid stickers. Cause single eyelid looks very fierce and unfriendly. But erm with the new fake double eyelids, still look fierce. Must be the stress. Nevermind, 1 more month and no more suffering.

Haiyah I am supposed to work OT on sat again this week but I need to go and source for suppliers for my business. Luckily as an intern, pple don’t expect so much of me but I try my best to deliver.

I hate the admin person at my workplace. I didn’t know I am entitled to meal allowance and when she saw my timesheet, she didn’t help me claim. Cheebye. Luckily my manager saw and ask my senior to help me claim. I know I am abit petty but I take revenge on her by writing ugily on my timesheet. Yah, that’s an excuse for my untidy timesheet too. Now I am going to spread the word about meal allowance to ensure that everybody gets theirs.

Need to do my work. bother bother.

Life has been a terrible rush. Time just flies by and I haven’t updated for like 5 days.

I worked OT on sat. What’s new? I managed to clock in 24 hours of OT last week. But that came at a price. After the depressing thurs in what I trudged home alone with the thunderstorm welting its anger at me, I had the flu (or cold) on fri. The flu (or cold) stayed on till today and I decided that I need to rest at home. Fuck the work. I think for the next 3 remaining days, my life is going to be hell so I better rest well before going to war.

On fri, I met up with GW, jerry and will and their gfs to eat at all the good places in geylang. The standards at geylang are dropping and I am not referring to the food. Will was mean and said something to the effect of “so ugly also can be meh?” It’s not the looks but the dress sense as well. Anyway moving on the food, we had claypot rice, fried hokkien noodles, satay and rojak. The food was really good although my nose was slightly blocked and I couldn’t really enjoy. And the guys started to talk abt insurance, trading, stocks and the money talks. I started to look really bored cause although I understand, I was really tired after work to use some brain cells. Their gfs were bored too. Guys!

On sat after OT, I went off to meet the others to celebrate Jess’s birthday. On a whim, lh and I decided to cut our hair at Icon. Not bad for 33.60. I ended up with a super chic and short hair do. Cutting hair is super addicted. Once you start, you can’t stop. I better stop cutting cause I have chopped off almost 30 cm off my hair. I shall post the pic when I get it.

Then we got to Jess’ house for steamboat, satay,stingray. Alot of food as usual. After which we played charades. As usual, Mr Fag and I have amazing chemistry and when I am acting, he is able to guess alot of it.

I got to act out “nip in the bud”.

So I pointed at Mr Fag’s nipple. Hahahhaha. And then someone guessed nipple. Then I showed the action that I wanted a shorter version of the word and it became nip. And they guessed it. LOL

Sunday was tuition day. No wonder I am so burned out. It was like working 7 days a week. I went shopping with my younger sis after that. We went to look at all the latest trends in town right down to get an inkling of what to sell at our shop. U2 has really cheap stuff. I wanted to get this pullover but decided not to as I have no occasion to wear.

And today I got an MC. But i got tons to do. Eg write cover letter, do the work I was supposed to do last week for work. Its hard to bring home work to do when I got to sleep after eating the drowsy medicine.

Its time to rest. Stay happy cause I am trying to.

Update on my miserable situation Yesterday

I was feeling upset in the morning. My colleague has not turned up and I thought I will be alone in the office the whole day. With no money for lunch.

I saw I have a message from my dad telling me not to be upset and have a good day at work. Cause I looked really upset when I left the house telling him that I missed my friend’s flight. And then I called a while later, really distressed that I forgot my wallet.

Then I rushed to the toilet where I cried. The pent-up emotions all day proved too much for me. Oh shit, I am crying now as I am typing this. At the client’s place somemore.

And then I realized that I forgot to bring my laptop’s adaptor. I might as well not work today. I forgot so many things. But the amount of work is staggering. I know I am just an intern, but I feel bad that my senior has to do so much work alone when I am off to another assignment next week. I don’t think I am cut out for this job. I feel so miserable everyday, I thought it’s really uncommon. And then I asked my other colleague who has worked for 6 months and I realized that she feels very miserable also everyday. Misery strives in company. Somehow I feel better that someone feels the same way as me.

During lunch, my dad called to check that I have food to eat.

Now I am alone at my client’s place. No colleagues with me today  I feel like doing some OT to clear more work, but I think I better go home and rest and do the rest of the work tomorrow. I will be OT-ing on Saturday. Life sucks these days.

I am really thinking whether I am cut-out for this line. My colleague told me I am ok. But I don’t think so. But hearing her says so, gives me more assurance. Assurance is really what I need at this moment.

But we must think of the bright side at all times. I am glad for this internship as I get to experience all the different cultures across companies. I get to eat at different places ( though not a lot). And I get to finally love school.

Oh ya, now I am working in the red light district area (not geylang). Apparently red light districts are divided by nationalities. The one I am at is populated by Vietnamese. There is even a coffeeshop selling Vietnamese food to cater to them. I didn’t realize this until yesterday night, when I went out at 8pm to buy some dinner for my colleagues (yes, we worked till that late), and saw scantily dressed women everywhere. Didn’t know I work in such a happening place. In the morning, everything seems normal.

I can finally leave early today at 7pm today. FINALLY.